I've been thinking of my family the last few days and remembered this song from awhile back. This is one of those songs that make me sit back, reflect, smile and (yes, I'm not afraid to admit it) cry. It's kinda timely for me...and it's good. My gift to you. Enjoy.
I miss you Stacey and Mackenzie and Alaina - and I love you!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Saturday, August 9, 2008
What is loneliness?
I've been in Swift Current now for a little over two weeks since starting my new job. I'm staying at my folks place and it's pretty good. Stacey and the girls are back in Calgary and we are waiting for our place to sell. In the evenings I have been looking at potential houses we could buy here in Swift and so far have a small list of maybes with one "Oh yeah" picked out. But still we wait.
It is Saturday and there is not much to do. I went for a run and then a walk right after and began to feel...alone. I miss Stacey and the girls. This separation is part of the deal with this new job until we can sell our place. I knew that it would suck being apart and now I am in the midst of complete suckage. I hate this suckage! I am so tired of waiting. It seems that all there is to do is wait. I have been praying for Christ's strength to be patient in this time but I am not so good at patience. To know that He has it worked out and that we are walking in His plan is pretty cool. Whenever I've heard stories of people in whose life Christ has worked I always hear and focus in on the beginning and end. Somehow that middle part of waiting through it and continuing to trust Him through it has gotten lost. That's where I think I am right now. The friggin' middle. Man, I dislike immensely the middle. Even more so now that I do not have my family close to me.
The middle sucked when we were together but we had each other to lean on. Now...it's just tough.
It is Saturday and there is not much to do. I went for a run and then a walk right after and began to feel...alone. I miss Stacey and the girls. This separation is part of the deal with this new job until we can sell our place. I knew that it would suck being apart and now I am in the midst of complete suckage. I hate this suckage! I am so tired of waiting. It seems that all there is to do is wait. I have been praying for Christ's strength to be patient in this time but I am not so good at patience. To know that He has it worked out and that we are walking in His plan is pretty cool. Whenever I've heard stories of people in whose life Christ has worked I always hear and focus in on the beginning and end. Somehow that middle part of waiting through it and continuing to trust Him through it has gotten lost. That's where I think I am right now. The friggin' middle. Man, I dislike immensely the middle. Even more so now that I do not have my family close to me.
The middle sucked when we were together but we had each other to lean on. Now...it's just tough.
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